No, I don't. Because no else will succeed my will but me. —I could rest if I loved him less. I could rest if it wasn't for my sake even more than his own.

If you want to take that from me, then you're welcome to. You can twist my heart or have a personae do whatever you please to me, and I may even be grateful to escape in that fashion. But neither of you wants that responsibility, so you don't get to demand impossible things of me, either.