edgeofjustice | Quesiton meme

Are we doing dickery in that thread? Should I plan while I have my notepad out?

And general map of Yuri's feelings atm. Haha, FEELINGS.

OR YOU COULD BE THAT FAST.

I MIGHT BE.

YURI IS VERY ADRIFT. Technically, he has a lot of stuff going... on... but nothing really going on. He feels like he can't get his hands on anything; not on Vincent, not on Flynn. SOUNDS CORNY but he feels fairly alone, which is possibly why he was grabbing for Vincent so hard. He's aware of an intense desire to have something to do, something to stay busy with. He feels kind of emptyyyy inside; no strong feelings or strong motivations, just agitated.

Reverse!

Bluh bluh bluh, nothing good! While logic trumped emotions with his brothers dipping out, he did loosen up with Obsidian. So, he does sort of listlessly feel something in that direction, but it's not anything he could really put his finger on. He could even have just been frustrated and tired from the situation with Yuri, and it was not at all related to his siblings, haha.

Of course, he knows that even if he took down the wall that he built between him and Yuri that he would still be crazy and Yuri would still be . . . Yuri. Also, he really does look back at his behavior before finding out his motivation with a lot of loathing, so he really doesn't want to go back to that . . . So, there are no easy solutions all around! He's kind of pouring himself into reading the Bible and doing whatever research he can in the library before he gets back on the Three train.

Yuri hasn't gotten over Elliot being gone yet, has he? Like he didn't get it all out, nor will he . . . Not think of him every day, yeah?

No... not really. It's not really a thing he will get over. Elliot was his liiight and his cornerstone in Aather. He was basically incapable of bad moods as long as he could see Elliot. But at the moment he is very drained and doesn't have the energy to be too emotional over it. He's just, you know, quietly worried that he lost Elliot and is subsequently losing Vincent.

Idk what does Vincent think about Yuri's... feelings...

TIRED OF THEM. ♥ He doesn't mind when they're the result of natural consequences and so on, but Yuri keeps having feelings because of Vincent . . . Which goes right against what Vincent prefers in personal relationships! He likes to keep the affair running smoothly enough that he doesn't get people looking at him for feelings. If they do, then he is up a creek, but he really is not going to respond normally. Like I've said before, he can view the world rather accurately, but he can't see himself within the world for shit.

To an extent, Vincent is petulant even! Yuri keeps thinking that he should act this or that way, but Yuri should be tuned in enough to know when Vincent is hiding and when he's not. So, it's like . . . Why keep pushing an issue that Vincent doesn't seem to have? And he can't even fake it, because he'll get caught for that. Vincent was really against the bracelet, because it wasn't dealing with emotions that was the problem; it was being stripped of his coping mechanisms and having to use someone else's. Hilariously, it's an excellent denial of the self that he is which gets Vincent bothered about, even with the desire to erase himself. The self that smiles all the time and plays with words was the best answer to the previous situation, so Vincent is partial to it . . . But it also doesn't completely suit Aather, so it's a no-win situation.

Just awful, no good, terrible situation. Stop having feelings, Yuri. —In light of the holiday, Yuri's best/worst decisions/dates/gifts/etc for Valentine's Day. Not just with Vincent, but like Chariot and Flynn and Estelle. Whatever you feel like, go wild.

Yeeeah I don't think Valentine's day was EVER a thing for Yuri, even back home. That holiday has never really been for him, and he doesn't exactly synpathize with the spirit in any serious sense. Best decision he can make in that regard is to DO NOTHING as far as Vincent's concerned, cause he knows Vincent would not really appreciate it. He might get him a gift if someone tells him about the holiday, probaby a pair of gloves. He'll probably use the event to flirt with Mithos (since they're married) or Cherry and be sad he can't troll Elliot with it. re: Estelle he will probably just be... oblivious. GJ Yuri. Or he'll think Estelle's being oblivious.

Reverse?

Vincent is that guy with about three different dates lined up for Valentine's Day, then he still manages to get into after-hours trouble. He kind of enjoys it, because the holiday just makes everything so easy. Kid in a candy store, etc etc. That said, he would probably do a round with tokens for the girls in his life, a special gift plus food for Obsidian, then he would take Yuri on a proper date, so he can have a good example for whenever he dares to try again. Honestly, if it were a game, Vincent would win without trying, because he is just so damn good at Valentine's.

What if Vincent said they should split? :?

HMMM. That's harder to predict. He would play it calm and as long as he didn't think Vincent's reasons were stupid he would respect his decision and make sure you know, we can still be friends/brothers right? And I still care about you and love you and that won't change. And he wouldn't go looking for Vincent or bother him unnecessarily and you know on the surface he would be 100% fine!!! He's aware of the futility of trying to cling to Vincent when Vincent's not interested, so he would assume a much more distant position but still look out for him and be there to patch him up when he screwed around. And he would still consider himself a Nightray. He wouldn't give up hope with being with him again but he wouldn't chase him.

Internally it'd be a trainwreck. Vincent was the person who taught Yuri how to want and let him have feelings so the irony of the thing Yuri wants most taking itself away would be lolololol. He'd be like 5x more leery of letting people in and like 10x more leery of sex.

Would he actually?

Haha, his hands are tied. In our current thread, he had a moment where he wanted to just get it out and over with, but he remembered why he hasn't already, so . . . The fact that Yuri is far too locked in for Vincent to set him loose. Plus, he has become part of Vincent's image, as it were, so he would raise a lot of suspicion among Elliot and Gilbert if they were to separate. So, there isn't a lot of internal motivation, while he is following through on the motions because of external reasons.

In a funny way, it kind of tosses back to the conflict of Yuri and Vincent being public or private from way back when. When it's private, the decision on what to do and how to act is very much Vincent's own prerogative, rather than all of these outside influences that he can throw back to. If he were free to act as he'd like, then Vincent would probably close the book between them before pushing too far and ruining something he does truly enjoy.

Y-Yuri doesn't have feelings or desires with other people? Really? Or is it just that Vincent taught him?

Well he is a lot more opaque with other people I think (See Lloyd's comment). It'd be more accurate to say he doesn't really EXPRESS a lot of deep/real feelings with other people. So yeah, without Vincent (or rather, with people not Vincent) he would not outwardly express many personal feelings.

Is Vincent unaware of this...

Vincent knows that he pushes for it, but he didn't think that it was an exclusive deal . . . For Vincent, he prefers to be left to his own devices and not have others draw him out. Even then, he has people that still try a lot, who want to make a connection with him as a person. So, for Yuri not to have that from others . . . Well, it means he plays the game better, but it's always disappointing. Vincent does think of Yuri as someone who should be loved as much as he struggles to cope with that. So, yeah, it would just be another reason to look down on people and the concept of humanity for Vincent, if he were truly aware that he was the only one.

Besides, it's not like Yuri isn't easy to play and pander to. It isn't rocket science, gosh. (Y-Yes, it is.)

Other conquests he would like to make? Or relationships around Aather that Yuri wants to deepen?

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