So Yuri has been tsun at Flynn since day one because it's FLYNN. And he has kept being mildly tsun at him for the same reason. Part of this tsun is born out of Yuri's sense of inferiority and uselessness; the feeling that he'll never be a good, effective person the way Flynn can be so easily. But then Flynn so SINCERELY believes in him when he doesn't WANT to be believed in it just backlashes into a FUCK YOU YOU DON'T KNOW MEEEE. Aggravating THAT is how Yuri feels about home in Aather; he loves Zaphias and Terca Lumireis but he was feeling super disconnected form his life there so when Flynn showed up he was pretty resolved to keep well enough a way and hopefully let Flynn's obsession with him work itself out. IT WORKED WITH RAVEN!!
Of course, that didn't happen. And he watched Flynn do his Flynn thing, not only being an effective knight but also changing and growing as he learned new things and then Flynn told him he made commandant and that. It's hard to describe it made him so happy it that it ended up making him kind of sad and that combined with FLynn ~blossoming~ in Aather just cemented the whole "Flynn is doing way better without me I'll just continue to leave him alone".
But that memory basically brought to head how much he LOVES Flynn. He spent three years being lonely and disillusioned and all he really wanted to do was see Flynn but he fucked himself out of it because while Flynn's success was a huge balm to him, it was also a reminder of his own failures.
But the CURRENT LEVEL OF TSUN you are dealing with mostly comes from... embarrassment. He spent all this time being like NOPE WHO WOULD LIKE FLYNN GROSS I SURE DON'T LOVE FLYNN!!! And pushing him away and insisting against it and now that it's happened he is... happy. Even though he doesn't want to admit it. He's happy and he knows Flynn is going to do stupid FLYNN shit to make him happy and it's exasperating and familiar and he knows he's gonna get topped so hard, god DAMMIT.
How does Flynn view the current situation? Does he have any plans or expectations?
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So Yuri has been tsun at Flynn since day one because it's FLYNN. And he has kept being mildly tsun at him for the same reason. Part of this tsun is born out of Yuri's sense of inferiority and uselessness; the feeling that he'll never be a good, effective person the way Flynn can be so easily. But then Flynn so SINCERELY believes in him when he doesn't WANT to be believed in it just backlashes into a FUCK YOU YOU DON'T KNOW MEEEE. Aggravating THAT is how Yuri feels about home in Aather; he loves Zaphias and Terca Lumireis but he was feeling super disconnected form his life there so when Flynn showed up he was pretty resolved to keep well enough a way and hopefully let Flynn's obsession with him work itself out. IT WORKED WITH RAVEN!!
Of course, that didn't happen. And he watched Flynn do his Flynn thing, not only being an effective knight but also changing and growing as he learned new things and then Flynn told him he made commandant and that. It's hard to describe it made him so happy it that it ended up making him kind of sad and that combined with FLynn ~blossoming~ in Aather just cemented the whole "Flynn is doing way better without me I'll just continue to leave him alone".
But that memory basically brought to head how much he LOVES Flynn. He spent three years being lonely and disillusioned and all he really wanted to do was see Flynn but he fucked himself out of it because while Flynn's success was a huge balm to him, it was also a reminder of his own failures.
But the CURRENT LEVEL OF TSUN you are dealing with mostly comes from... embarrassment. He spent all this time being like NOPE WHO WOULD LIKE FLYNN GROSS I SURE DON'T LOVE FLYNN!!! And pushing him away and insisting against it and now that it's happened he is... happy. Even though he doesn't want to admit it. He's happy and he knows Flynn is going to do stupid FLYNN shit to make him happy and it's exasperating and familiar and he knows he's gonna get topped so hard, god DAMMIT.
How does Flynn view the current situation? Does he have any plans or expectations?